More of Me

Here I am, attempting to write what I can... Memories, pictures, people, It is all a story in my head like pages ripped out of a book, and hidden somewhere... somewhere...   The adults in my life consistently expressed disbelief in the possibility that I could have remembered something from when I was two, or … Continue reading More of Me

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Eating a sour lemon is over quicker than making lemonade…

I am scared. There it is.  I am scared! It took nearly ten years to realize the abuse I endured caused me to dissociate.  Until my husband and I came to accept this we were homeschooling.  However, teaching the kids at home forced me to deal with whatever it was that caused functioning in this … Continue reading Eating a sour lemon is over quicker than making lemonade…

Old Guitar

This morning my oldest red-head discovered something under my bed.  She had a guitar pic in her hand, and a huge smile on her face. She said, "Mom, I found something to make music!" My old guitar is something I always wanted to feel comfortable playing, but couldn't get around feeling so self conscious about … Continue reading Old Guitar

Princess Power!

Over the past week I took one daughter at a time to the store to pick up a doll.  Daughter G, who is 7 years old now, picked out the Princess Power Barbie doll with the blue hair.  Blue is her favorite color.  G is a sweetie, she reminds me of myself as a kid. … Continue reading Princess Power!

Connecting the Dots, emotional memory past and present

For the last week or so things have been so intense emotionally!  We have six daughters, so there is no shortage of emotions in this house!  Plus, we have one on the way - so I am an absolute hormonal wreck!  For the most part the problem is due to pregnancy just intensifying how I … Continue reading Connecting the Dots, emotional memory past and present

Back to the beginning…

Discovering something severe did occur in my childhood was not easy to accept - even though I had enough reason to accept it.  Anything short of the truth simply would not be enough.  I had to know what really happened and if I was barking up the wrong tree.  I needed validation.  Walking this path … Continue reading Back to the beginning…

Triggered by Parenting

Today began pretty normal - tired waking up, but readying my self for a new day.  The older kids went to school while the little ones stay behind.  To begin with I felt very positive.  I said morning prayers and intended to write about my experiences with angels.  Then something happened.  My daughters started fighting … Continue reading Triggered by Parenting

Hello, my name is Josie?

Hello, my name is Josie.  🙂  (One of the alters)  Here I thought I had so much to say!  Anyway, I had a dream last night.  I was looking at a photo album with baby pictures of myself.  There was a picture of a very cute baby girl.  Now that we have access to more … Continue reading Hello, my name is Josie?

Chapter 1, Continued…

It is good to have the internet again!  After over two months away - I am finally able to continue what I began.  The date I signed up with WordPress was September 19 which was the feast of Our Lady of La Salette.  Here are a couple sites which give information on Our Lady of … Continue reading Chapter 1, Continued…

Chapter 1 Growing Up Me

For as long as I can remember, I have felt different.  I have been socially impaired and very uncomfortable with my body.  This is not to say that I never had any friends, I did, but couldn't connect with others the same way other people do.  As different as I felt from others, they could … Continue reading Chapter 1 Growing Up Me