Today I will go into a surreal type of memory. Josie, one of my alter personalities, went through some sort of psychic training or development. She is the one who saw angels, ghosts, and even demons. Psychic development is a part of monarch programming. I believe whatever part of the brain where Josie … Continue reading A Memory for Monday: a vision and a message
Here is more of the story. I don't feel safe talking about this to anybody I know, other than my husband, and that is why I am anonymously online disclosing whatever it is that I can figure out. There is a need to "report" - a mechanism that I destroyed within me although the need … Continue reading If “A” is true, then isn’t “B” true?
Hypnosis at home, do I really get hypnotized? I am not sure if I can be truly hypnotized because of how my programming was set up. I was set up to go into a trance when ever the trigger was used. I know in general of one trigger, although I am unable to remember the … Continue reading Methodical Destruction
Discovering something severe did occur in my childhood was not easy to accept - even though I had enough reason to accept it. Anything short of the truth simply would not be enough. I had to know what really happened and if I was barking up the wrong tree. I needed validation. Walking this path … Continue reading Back to the beginning…
For as long as I can remember, I have felt different. I have been socially impaired and very uncomfortable with my body. This is not to say that I never had any friends, I did, but couldn't connect with others the same way other people do. As different as I felt from others, they could … Continue reading Chapter 1 Growing Up Me
How do you help a person understand where I have come from and where I am now? This journey through life so far has been one of deep deception and major betrayal as well as great Love and Hope. Since I am almost certain my close family would not believe the truth - that they … Continue reading Introduction