Every so often I come to a point where I start to question everything. I question these memories, or my Others and how separated are they or if they are real. I test whether or not the life I remember is the life i lived. I get to a point where I am like, Oh … Continue reading Jesus’ Agony
When I began writing about coming to terms with having multiple personalities/dissociative identity disorder about a year ago or so the idea of accepting that there has been a BIG chunk of my life that I did not know anything about has been a struggle. The idea that so much could have been done in … Continue reading Accepting the Worst
Here is more of the story. I don't feel safe talking about this to anybody I know, other than my husband, and that is why I am anonymously online disclosing whatever it is that I can figure out. There is a need to "report" - a mechanism that I destroyed within me although the need … Continue reading If “A” is true, then isn’t “B” true?
Hypnosis at home, do I really get hypnotized? I am not sure if I can be truly hypnotized because of how my programming was set up. I was set up to go into a trance when ever the trigger was used. I know in general of one trigger, although I am unable to remember the … Continue reading Methodical Destruction
Discovering something severe did occur in my childhood was not easy to accept - even though I had enough reason to accept it. Anything short of the truth simply would not be enough. I had to know what really happened and if I was barking up the wrong tree. I needed validation. Walking this path … Continue reading Back to the beginning…
Today is the feast of Our Lady of Ransom. It is fitting to post something on this day! Our Lady appeared to St. Peter Nolasco, along with two other people asking them to found an order that will focus on freeing slaves. In our modern world (especially in America) it is common to believe that … Continue reading Our Lady of Ransom