Hello, my name is Josie. 🙂 (One of the alters) Here I thought I had so much to say! Anyway, I had a dream last night. I was looking at a photo album with baby pictures of myself. There was a picture of a very cute baby girl. Now that we have access to more memories from the core (Dory) I know – that baby looked nothing like my real baby pictures! Funny, huh? It’s just wierd…
I was named for my aunt’s (supposedly my mother) daughter who she gave up for adoption. The other Josie was actually a year older than I actually am! They even gave me her birthday! Since my aunt and real mom are twin sisters, people would mix them up regularly. That way when someone came up to me/Dory/whoever the heck I was and asked how my mom was doing it didn’t matter who was the front person, because Dory would always say “oh, you must mean my aunt – she is my mom’s twin sister” and they would be like, “oh, tell her I say hi.” One time somebody made a mistake. The conversation started the same – “how’s your mom” yada yada. But she went on this time – Oh, I had no idea she has a twin sister. Then she let out a little more… “I thought you were adopted by another family in the area, but would still spend time with [the aunt], I thought you knew”
Usually, people would stop talking after they heard our aunt was a twin. This was interesting anyway. So, I am not really the real person — How do you like that?? I had friends and a whole social circle of people that I really thought had some sense of loyalty. No, now I find out they probably were more interested in the novelty of being involved with someone they had the ability to control! I am reminded of Dory hearing about how everybody loves Josie, not so much her. That is because she is a good Catholic girl – not the kind of person my friends would typically befriend unless they could turn her. I have learned they are loyal to the point of something being in it for themselves.
If the people who did this to us could be equated with vampires, then Dory married Van Helsing. A very loyal and stubborn man! Ever since getting married we have had no contact with them – and we are happy for it! I like Dory’s life. It gets a little lonely without friends – but to be honest I don’t have much in common with anybody.
I don’t feel like a slave to the devil anymore. Being free spiritually is so much better than being a slave to the devil with many friends. Without our husband we would still be involved in the rituals and surely the programming would get updated.
From Psalm 30:
Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am afflicted: my eye is troubled with wrath, my soul, and my belly:
 For my life is wasted with grief: and my years in sighs. My strength is weakened through poverty and my bones are disturbed.  I am become a reproach among all my enemies, and very much to my neighbours; and a fear to my acquaintance. They that saw me without fled from me.  I am forgotten as one dead from the heart. I am become as a vessel that is destroyed. For I have heard the blame of many that dwell round about. While they assembled together against me, they consulted to take away my life.  But I have put my trust in thee, O Lord: I said: Thou art my God.
 My lots are in thy hands. Deliver me out of the hands of my enemies; and from them that persecute me.  Make thy face to shine upon thy servant; save me in thy mercy.  Let me not be confounded, O Lord, for I have called upon thee. Let the wicked be ashamed, and be brought down to hell.  Let deceitful lips be made dumb. Which speak iniquity against the just, with pride and abuse.  O how great is the multitude of thy sweetness, O Lord, which thou hast hidden for them that fear thee! Which thou hast wrought for them that hope in thee, in the sight of the sons of men.